This journal is more of a rant. Hope you guys like it because im going to enjoy getting all of this off my chest.
People are too biased. They think just because i am something, I have to somehow be something else. For example: A lot of students at my school seem to think there is something soooo wrong with being bisexual or gay. I am bisexual and get bothered about it all the time. Especially in World History and my class is predominantly low-educated ghetto imitators. The only reason i am in that 'i-know-nothing' class is because my dad didnt think i could hack the advanced. At the biginning of the year i was in all advanced classes and was doing great. But my dad just popped up and yanked me into all basic classes because he doesnt believe in me enough to leave me alone. I have a whole bunch of problems....i guess ill really start ranting with my family as said subject. But before that, i think ill give a little background info on the situation.
Ginger-step mother
Penni- step sister
Jon-step brother
My dad got engaged to Ginger about 6 months ago and we all moved into this little house bout 3 months ago. Of course, I got the smallest room, yet i get NO other perks whatsoever. In fact, I get almost nothing at all. I am treated the worst of everyone in the house. But here is the family started rant:
Step mom- This horrid woman accuses me of everything. She always stands up for her kids and thinks i steal. I have never stolen anything from them. EVER. And i, personally, think her kids take things from me. In fact, I KNOW they do..ive seen her daughter take things from my room. There is a lot of tension between us and she complains ALL THE TIME. Not just complaining the normal way either (though she does do that a lot) but its whining too. And even LITERALLY whining..like a little angry child.......and to top it all off, she has the MOST annoying voice on the face of the earth. Its all high pitched and shrill and such. I mean, MINE is high but in the little girl kind of way. Hers is more like a saw.
Penni- Oh my crap. How the hell am i going to say this?....hm.....shes a total bitchy liar. sha always gets her way, even from my dad. She gets everything before me......like shes more significant.....maybe that sounded a little selfish but im just tired of being treated like a dog and like the least important member of this family. But i guess someone has to fill that place, huh?....and who better than me?
Jon- What a total little titty baby.......hes such a momma's boy. Ginger does everything for him and I cant stand it. Plus he eats everything in the house. Oh yeah....and he's constanly blaring his drumset or his guitar...and i love both of those instruments but he cant play worth a DAMN and it gives me fucking MIGRANES!!!!11!1!11!@2!11!1!1oneoneone!1 1#@5!!!1111fortythree
---Both of her kids are little babies and depend on her for absolutely everything. Jon is like fucking 18 or something and still hasnt even considered moving out, even going to college. And get this.....Ginger still does his fucking laundry.....I dont know about you, but i am a VERY independant person and take care of myself to as full extent as i possibly can...because my dad never really did anything for me. I cook my own meals, do my own laundry, take care of my own chores (which seem to be ALL of them now that we live with THEM), i do EVERYTHING for myself except for pay the bills and such...and thats because i dont have a job. and the only reason for that is because im only 15 and my dad wont let me get a job. Oh yeah.....and Penni and Jon....eat EVERYTHING....they are pigs. Since we all moved into this new home (new to us anyway), i have actually lost like 15 pounds....i weigh close to 78 pounds and im 5ft tall......if you ask me, that isnt healthy. That says enough without going as far as to say that not only do they get first in ebverything...but they TAKE everything they can and i get almost nothing...but ive already kind of said that, now havent i?
And lastly,
Dad- Hes horrible too.....he is totally on EVERY side but mine....that pretty much says it all and i am running out of time so i suppose ill let what rant i have now, stand and get back to the vast fields of what lies ahead (which would be like 4 more hours of typing up the rest of my rant-worthy problems) later.....Thanks for reading all of this, and possibly caring....or not....till next time ;;>.> (by the way...this rant was approx. 30 mins long)
All about me.......wow....I suck worse than i thou
The year is drawing to a close; so much has happened over the past twelve months in my life, and in some respects I’m still trying to make sense of it all! DeviantArt has played a major part in my life over the past year – it has shaped me as a person more than University ever has – and I have all of you to thank for that.
During high school my father handed me a leather bag – I didn’t know what the contents were. When I opened it up I found to my delight an old Pentax 35mm with an assortment of lenses. I was thrilled. I had never tried my hand at photography before but immediately went out to the nearest store, picked up some film and joined the school newspaper. A week later I got my first rolls of film back – all underexposed and ruined. I had failed miserably and put the camera away in my closet.
In early 2003 I took a trip to Quebec City for the Winter Carnival – and I took the camera with me. In April of that year a good friend from High School introduced me to DeviantArt. I submitted some of my photos from the trip (that were not underexposed – hurrah!) and a handful of pencil drawings of Totoro. It didn’t take long for me to become hooked and soon I was taking pictures again and learning from other photographers. That summer I bought my first digital camera, and I haven’t looked back since.
As of this moment I have been taking on small commercial jobs, doing commission work and creating a portfolio that I will take to local galleries in early 2005. I have started to sell prints both online and offline, and I have started to think of photography as a serious profession down the road. Perhaps it will be as a photojournalist, perhaps as a researcher – maybe simply as an artist trying to capture the beauty around me. In the course of just over a year photography has become my one true passion – I can’t put the camera down, and I can’t stop flipping through books, magazine articles, collections etc. It truly is addictive, and it changes the way I view the world around me.
I owe this tremendous change in my life to all of you. Since the very beginning you guys have been incredibly supportive, and incredibly inspirational. The amount of constructive feedback that I have received is overwhelming to say the very least. The other rich aspect of this community is the ability to see what others see – I have enjoyed viewing your work since joining – there have been some very moving / thought provoking / gorgeous imagery produced. This artistic community is a blessing for those starting out as an artist, or for those who simply want to share or observe work.
I don’t want this community experience to end anytime soon – I hope to remain an active member of the site and play as much of a part in your lives as you have played in mine. Sometimes I do get busy with school etc, but don’t ever feel that I’m ignoring you! Leave a message; kick me from time to time (even a slap to the face will do). I say this from time to time, but I’ll say it again here – if you ever want feedback on your work just let me know – I really don’t mind stopping by to comment / offer input! It is always nice to see what other people are using their imagination and creativity to produce.
Regardless of what your background is, I hope that you find the time over the next couple of weeks to relax and sneak away from the hectic pace of life - enjoy the company of family & friends! All the best to you in 2005
Cheers,
Evan
You're family sure seems like a bunch of assholes...but that's more of a reason to better yourself so you can be more than they could ever be (it actually sounds like you already are...).
So, good luck surviving. And thanks again for the watch.
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Oh yeah...and i think i get to pick up my contacts this thursday morning (yay!....my first try with contacts)
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i like playing vampire---> [link]
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I have nothing to say but I feal like my mouth is open.... everything comes around
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